i can't stand it anymore. i think i may be on the edge of losing my mind.
the economy sucks.
my job sucks.
my boss sucks.
and nyc is really not the greatest city in the world.
i feel the urge to move back to seattle or move to latin america, shirk all of my responsibilities, and live a bohemian lifestyle for a while.
option b is looking really good right now.
everything has been awful lately. as if it isn't bad enough that the job market sucks and there is virtually no mobility outside of your own company. they lied to me. the job they described in my interview is not what i do. my boss is socially unacceptable. not to mention i have been reading a lot about cross cultural business and management lately and have realized that the S&S model of management could/is the WORST model I have ever experienced. god forbid anyone want to ever apply to a better position than what they are in now!!! why would anyone ever want to move out of a dead end department when you know that your job is pointless? i mean really, why would you?!?!
all i can do is keep my head down and do the bullshit work that i need to do. i can honestly say that lately i have been missing Pearson and all of my friends there. at least their reps aren't all lazy assholes and the managers actually encourage and promote growth. imagine that... promoting growth and encouraging development. who would have thought that was part of a successful management model?!
i can't wait until summer.
hopefully with obama things will look up soon.
next week i get a root canal and take the foreign service officer exam. fingers crossed on getting past the test.
in other news, dayne apologized to me a few months ago. we get along now for the sake of living together. we are still not friends and i make sure to keep her at a safe distance because i really don't trust her much still.
oh yeah... i got my first tattoo last month. i got a map of the world on the back of my calves.
